Monthly Archives: September 2011
This is one of my favorite poems of Tupac’s. Being a writer I am big on using words as a form of expression because they are powerful when used correctly. Tupac was incomparable when it came to that. If the writer is good enough it is very easy for me to connect with their emotion through their lyrics and get lost in them especially when the lyrics speak as loudly as these do. Music can be a vessel into your soul, a source of healing and comfort. A place of solace. And at times that’s where I go when I find myself needing clarity. I put in my ear buds and I press play…..and sometimes I put in my ear buds and I Cry….
Sometimes when I’m alone
I Cry, cause I am on my own.
The tears I cry are bitter and warm.
They flow with life but take no form
I Cry because my heart is torn.
I find it difficult to carry on.
If I had an ear to confide in,
I would cry among my treasured friend, but who do you know that stops that long, to help another carry on.
The world moves fast and it would rather pass by.
Then to stop and see what makes one cry, so painful and sad.
I Cry and no one cares about why.
– Tupac Shakur
Hope you all have a great weekend! I will be doing a LOT of writing but I found this video and wanted to share! Enjoy!
Because it feels so good when I stop…..
A lot of people have probably heard this phrase before. Meredith said it in an episode of Grey’s Anatomy once. When I first heard it I wasn’t sure what she meant but the more and more I thought I about what she said, I finally got it.
As women we do things, certain things, over and over again that usually cause us some sort of grief or pain and more often than not it involves a man. It can be anything from waiting for a date or sitting by the phone waiting for it to ring and usually once these things happen a sense of relief washes over us but the catch is as the high wears off from that encounter slowly but surely we start the cycle…..all….over….again. Hence, hitting ourselves over the head with the hammer.
These blows to the head can come in many different forms these are a few:
- Sending text messages waiting for and receiving no response for hours or sometimes days, or worse, not at all. And when it finally does it’s a one word response: “HI” or “Hey”
- Placing endless phones calls that go unanswered for days at a time.
- A subtle exchange of emails or tweets that get ignored or when answered are very short and one-sided.
- Promises of a returned phone call that doesn’t happen. At least not within the same 72-hours it was promised.
- Plans of another date or spending time together that seems to never come.
There’s nothing like waking up with tears in your eyes….
But I always wondered, how do they do that? The tears I mean.
Do they just know that you slept with a broken heart and are there, ready to comfort you.
Or are they there, out of spite, to serve as a reminder, that you slept with a broken heart?
You take a moment to make your reality match your situation, you take a step back and then you forgive yourself, and allow yourself to heal.
Because in time……and only in time……you will smile again.
And if you’re lucky, there will be someone there…..to return the smile.
But only this time….it’ll be real and it won’t cost you a thing.
And if you’re really lucky, the only thing that smile will be hiding……is forever.